It started with a whisper.

In the arms of an angel, fly away from here, from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear. you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie, youre in the arms of the angel. May you find some comfort there. So tired of the straight line and everywhere you turn theres vultures and thieves at your back. The storm keeps on twisting and you keep on building the lie that make you up for all that you lack. It dont make no difference, escaping one last time. It's easier to believe in this sweet madness than this glorious sadness that brings me to my knee. 

So, cheer season 12 ended and indirectly, Rayvens 12 did too. :'( le creys. i miss all of them so much already and it hasn't even been one week! I wonder what it's going to feel like after going back to the gym without all the seniors and their stupid utterly ridiculous awesome jokes. this really sucks, seriously. ugh, and the thought that we have more strength works and kill joys coming in next season is really a pain in the ass! i just want to rewind time or either move on faster without going through pain this coming holidays! :( 

I'm gradually happy, i suppose. I improved mentally and physically stronger and better. I'm super proud of myself, not to boast or anything but really i feel like i have became a better person. Thanks to cheer, 100% crediting cheer to help me manage my life properly, notice things that can actually change my life and even just me. Anyways, feelings and emotions have been mixing around again. I don't even know what to think or what to believe. 

I'm still scared, feeble and insecure. just insecure i guess. what if this goes wrong and that happens? so many questions in my head. ugh, i just want you to know EVERYTHING but not feel a thing and react the way i want you to react. But, i know, we dont get all the things we want in life. so what am i suppose to do now? im tired of waiting. everyday in life, i think about you. whether do you think about me too? will you want this to work? i wonder all these messages actually have a meaning behind it or you're just saying it without thinking that i will actually do something crazy like over think about it? mmmm, insecurities at it's best all over again. 

time flies, so fast. 4 more months and i can't see my senior friends. sigh, sigh, sigh. i wonder what will happen after that. especially when MOST of my close friends are all from form 5. this sucks, everything is walking out of my life. damn, memories will too. Speaking of time passing away, cheer 12 ended, something we have been working our friggin ass off. Results didnt really calmed our nerves and was super unexpected. But, hey, life is unfair, we just need to work hard. cant aim it? work harder, aim higher and just get stronger. Cheer 12 and then after that victory dinner with Rayvens, Cyrens and lovely parents and Coach Mike!

let the games begin! 

can't ask for better classmates!

tumbling.

Cheer.

x-out

IT'S TIME TO TAKE THE WORLD BACK! (:

With lovely Su Min! 

CAPTAIN LI JING! <3

my base <3

with le lovely stunt group! <3

Rayvens '12 !

Cyrens & Rayvens!

HAHA, nope im not done yet. so many memories, all ended already! sigh, really really sigh. :( damn. 

Those late nights again, like yesterday night. all the goosebumps and hair standing up. meaning? meaning you're missing someone. too afraid to step out of the closet or box to tell who you really are. im so softspoken. i always get ignored. yes, i have alot of things to say but what if i blurted out something wrong and something too private? it happened. quite alot, and im scared of it happening again. why am i so scared of everything? i dont even dare to make a move. and thats what i kind of hate about all of this friggin screwed up mess. i dont know what to do. 

anyways, c3 and the night before it we had Snogurt with some of the Cyrens :) pranking day, woohoo. it wasnt cool AT ALL. we got prank and we thought the 3 little pesty flyers were kidnapped/ lost cause we couldnt find them for 2 hours and in the end,they hiding behind the Snogurt counter, WOW. HAHAHA, we were stupid. anyhow, we had fun. went back to the twins house and played water balloons. ahhh, never too bored of them and i enjoyed every single minute of it. then, headed home went out to KFC! more cheer stories and experiences from Coach Soo Hui! teehee. then went back home chilled at their outside place, lol, till around 12? gosh and competition the next day! woke up watching a movie and then only we started to get ready. yes, rayvens are pigs and monkeys! ^^v

Happy Pranking Day! :p

DAT ASS.

celebrated and gave coach soo hui a surprise birthday cake! :)

C3! 

had lunch with DStarz and Cyrens!

Kimmie and Joo Shan!

Vei Lin :3

Sisters of Rayvens 12!

With Regine :)

last warm up ever before we head on to the blue mat!

boomz, our last perfect routine! 

after results :) ^   v

*explodes*

My lovely Coach Yi Wen and Coach Soo Hui, :) i love them to bits! seriously, without them, Rayvens 12 will not be who Rayvens is today! They have motivated us at the times when we were the MOST demotivated and disappointed. We owe it ALL to them. EVERYTHING. we love you so much and we are super proud to have you guys as our coaches. I am super happy that I get to be in Rayvens 12, i experienced so much from this team and I will always cherish our moments and memories together, forever and always! ♥

proudly dedicated to Rayvens 12, i love you all to bits!

-Denise Low

-Joo Shan

- Wei Yi

-Erne Lin

-Khai Huei

-Vei Lin

-Jeslyn

-Khai Tze

-Kimberly

-Yin Thyme

-Su Ann

-Alysha

-Bernice

- Samantha

-Small Sam

- Stephanie

-most importantly to the one who made this all happen, Saw Li Jing! ♥

xo