Betrayal.

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘.

Hi guys. It's been a long time since i updated this. I still wonder if anyone reads it :c mmm. been getting along well with friends and family. :) how are you guys? but im still torn apart from my grandmother's condition :c boooo. sigh. but she is getting better, and im happy with what i have now. just wish that everything will be back to normal where everyone was healthy. 

i've moved on. i guess? 30%. 70% more to go. its so difficult to cope with this. so much has happened. sigh. i wish wish wish i can take a break from this crap and put a stop to this current situation. i keep thinking its not real, but it is and every time i try to wake myself up, i am already woken up and reality is i was betrayed? im so stupid. and crappy. every time i try to put myself outside the world, take a chance, take a bite, i get hurt by every second and image i see the both of you together. fuck you guys. 

anger, furious, revenge. revenge isn't the answer to anything so imma be a good girl and not do it. just need to keep calm and accept the fact that this shit is happening and move on. its hard but i need to try. need to find someone else who actually cares. and not be used. i was really used here in this situation, why? im not your friggin spy or toy okay? wish you'd understand my feelings, but i dont think you did and never will. because after all this, what we had was just bull shit and something for you to laugh at when you grow up. something you maybe made up and was never meant to be. 

cheer:

it's great, as usual. failures and success. whats the difference? every time we fail or success, we still know that we actually made an effort to hit the stunt and im super proud. my current stunt group is wei yi, me, denise and joo shan. :3 mmmm im so happy to have this stunt group, yayyyyy. *claps? sports practices are killing me. im getting tanner, even my mom says so. i have a friggin obvious tan line between my hand and my tummy dafuq -________- nothing to say, just crappin. exams around the corner, sucks to be all the kbsm people. :) hehehe. but we still have 3 exams :( sigh bm , ict and chinese. oh nuuuu, ict moodkiller srsly. TT

i guess thats all for now. C: hehehe  dont wanna crap alot today. till next month, or next post or whatever. :p 

bye, xx.