Unsettled

Greetings, it's been awhile since I've had time to blog and currently, i still don't. Just procrastinating after dinner, hehe.

Anyways, it's been a really dull long two weeks. I still feel as gloomy as ever but I am still forever grateful for all my friends and beloveds. These two weeks made me realize that I am not that great. I am not specifically good in anything, just an average/ below average for everything that I do. Is it wrong to feel lonely? Should I feel guilty for feeling so downgraded?

The biggest block of negativity in my head now is all about my studies. How? How do I excel in all four subjects for my ALevels? They're so difficult, it's impossible for me to ace any of them. I practiced, don't say I don't. Every day and night, every possible time I have in school, I just do practice and practice, over and over again... but... nothing?! A little improvement, but not enough for me. Only a little few weeks to AS and I can feel like I am going to bawl my insides out.

God please give me the strength through all this. I pray for your constant belief and faith in me.

Love,
AW