Mood: IDGAF.

All the things I gave you, made you, change you. Cause the walls burned up when our love fell down and it turned into whatever now we're saying never. Feel the fire 'cause it's all around and it's burning for forever and always. We gotta let it go, be on our way and look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby. Watch it all falling to the ground, no happy ever after, just disaster. 

I give up? Never blogging and pouring my secrets out anymore. I just can't. Life stinks sometimes, no? I don't mean to brag or complain, but it just happens. When will I have a day without feeling so confused, insecure, lost, not wanted, not worthy, invisible? Every single time i try to say something, someone comes in the way and block me, standing so tall. No one hears me at all. It's like "her suggestion? who cares?"

I don't like it. I don't like the position i am right now. I'm like always being ignored? And when someone tries to hear me, they never finish hearing me and stops halfway and go to the others. *huge sigh* Like last week? Everyone had a ticket but me so i had to go get a new one and they just abandoned me like that. They went into the cinema hall first without me. real friends? no. it just hurts. and i have to sit alone at the row infront. :\ mmmm. whatever, i know they won't be there for me in the present and thats for sure.

But on the other hand, who can blame them? 

not me.

goodnight, x.

‎2011 is almost over, 

i want a new beginning.