Just one thing, you.

Wait a minute before you tell me anything. How was your day? 'Cause I been missing you by my side. Did i wake you out of your dream? I'm sorry but I can't sleep. You calm me down and there's something about the sound of your voice. I never as far away as it may seem no soon we'll be together, we'll pick up right where we left off and start over.

hello. im so stressed. 

1. studies.

2. family. {father}

3. him.

4. cheer {my fucking neck}

i barely updated my blog this week and im sorry. i was super busy. anyways, this week was restless. My neck got sprained and injured really badly. the first day, i cried at least 10 times because of the pain. then i went to the doctor to get a check up and my neck got better the next day. :) i was so relieved i thought i couldn't go cheer anymore. 

and yesterday. i cried again because of my neck. i didn't really do alot of hardcore training but just the light ones. i only did V-sit ups and my neck started hurting like hell again. i cried even worse yesterday than on monday. ugh. this pain is kill. 

today , i woke up around 7 just to message him. i left him hanging around  midnight because i told him that i will wait for him to sleep first then i will sleep but i slept already. i feel like a miserable guilt. i texted him again. he said he is studying so i replied with "text me after k?" he didn't reply till now. did he forget or he didn't just bother? thoughts are murdering.


sigh. im currently in a mess and finals are here. just in another 2 weeks. wtf. things just had to happen. im listening to big time rush's songs like world wide. lol. i don't know why but yeah. their songs are more "suitable" for my feelings now? yeah. everytime i listen to any song, i just can't stop but think about him and why i even fell for him. just keep thinking about him. 

fuck all of this.
i cried just now.




bye, xo.