I just have to break down.

I'm really upset. I just wish my life would tumble the other way around and become like cinderella's happy ending. seriously... i just can't wait anymore. don't tell me i'm beautiful cause i am not. i am just a tiny, worthless, ugly, fat trash laying on his shoes. when will he ever realize that i like him? i just .... screw everything, fucked up, society is just fucked up.

"Goodnight, see you tomorrow. (: take careee and sweet dreams!"

-every night with him-

"Hello. :) How's your day?"

-every time I start the conversation-

"yo."

-every time he starts the conversation-

"your laugh is contagious, your smile is beautiful, your face is gorgeous, your everything i dreamed of"

"i still wonder why you talk to me out of all the other girls out there. i don't see what i have to offer but each and every time i thought you would walk out of my life you seem to never ever fail to make me remember how love can happen." "but... its just one thing. you dont notice me that i am the one who is in love with you. but i have no single title at all and im ugly, fat, timid, scared, unlovable, me. while you are one big icon. I don't know what they say about you in the real world but i bet it is not like my comments. I'm seriously desperate to be with you. This sounds so selfish i know but i can't take the pain anymore. he is really someone special to me and i am not sure if he feels the same way about me. i bet not, why would he?"

lil eddie - like a statue.

my feelings are mostly based on that song but its just that im not in a relationship with him. 

and i don't think i ever will.

i want my life to be like cinderella's.

is that so hard?